Running a marathon

Training your heart and feelings

I am still busy reading Emotional Gravity by Angela de Souza.  It really is an excellent book and I would highly recommend it (and I am not even half way, yet).  And yesterday, I was reading about how if you have a leaning toward a negative emotion, how you need to focus on the opposite positive emotion and to start training yourself to feel, believe and think  in that opposite emotion.  So, that you can start to have positive feelings, and positive thoughts – and lead a positive life.  As Joyce Meyers says,

“You can’t live a positive life thinking negative thoughts.”

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Now, I battle with anxiety and fear.  For whatever reasons, I do.  And I understand all the reasons, and I know how and why I came to be at this point, but none of this has miraculously relieved me of the anxiety and fear that I feel.  That is where I feel this book is coming in handy – it is the realisation that I have to control my thoughts, and train my emotions – as if I am training to run a marathon.  I cannot give into the anxiety and fear any longer.  I need to acknowledge why I battle with this, forgive those that need to be forgiven and now train my mind and feelings. 

So, the opposite of anxiety is:
Assurance, calmness, composure, contentment, ease, happiness, nonchalance, peace, tranquillity

So, I need to focus on feeling calm, composed, content, happy, peace and tranquil.

Easier said than done when living with so much financial stress, and working in a very stressful environment and battling family politics, etc, etc, etc…

But, this I can do.  Take a deep breath, and allow the calm and peace to flow over you and allow yourself to believe and have faith.

This I can do.  I can learn to not have this anxiety that has plagued me virtually my whole life.  It is not going to be easy, because I am constantly aware of this anxiety that sits in the corner like a naughty child, just ready to come out and take over.

Philippians 4:13

New International Version (NIV)

13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.


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About anxiousmotherhood

I have found becoming a mother has filled me with such anxiety on a deep and very insecure level. I hope this blog will help me gain my sense of calm, security and peace...

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